Entry 26: It's Kind of a Funny Story

“I’m like an animal.”
“We’re all like animals,” I say.  “Especially now, when we’re all in a room eating.  It reminds me of high school.”
“You’re smart, I see that. We’re all animals, high school is animals, but some of us are more animal than others.  Like in Animal Farm, which I read, all animals are created equal, but some are more equal than others? Here in the real world, all equals are created animal, but some are more animal than others.  Hold on let me write that down.”

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So I skipped the whole spiral into depression thing because it’s all too relatable.  After a night of suicidal urges Craig checked himself into a local emergency room.  He is now spending his first day in the hospital’s Adult Psychiatric hall.

Earlier, hospital staff cleared him of his personally belongings.  After losing his cell phone, his only connection to his friends and family through their saved numbers, Craig said he felt like an animal.  Before he came to the hospital, eating was physically hard.  If he felt particularly stressed he would feel a squeeze in his stomach causing him to be sick.  He feared being forced to eat in front of the other patients.  Now he is at lunch, having this conversation with Humble, a man who is more afraid of living than dying.  Humble switches his words around and uses them interchangeably.  Although this is basically the rant of a neurotic it has some validity.